Sunday, November 25, 2007
and so we tot we were suppose to juz go for a supper. yet end up goin home at around 7 in the morning. haha! frm simpang supper to east coast park. had mixed feelings when we were nearing ecp. i cld see ur hse. its so pretty from here. and i passed by on the way home. it was so near yet so far. anyhow, it was fun talking. so much were said. work, those things and N.S stufffs. haha! but wads best was the sunrise we caught. the orangy purple sky, juz like the rainbow i saw the other day i was driving. how i wish i cld catch it wif u. so i guess nx outing wif the batch shld be on xmas itself ba. need to get rdy gifts soon. will get the scarfs like i said. wahhaha. nah. rmbr guys. it will be an overnight thingy yupp. hehe!
and guess wad. i slept at 9am and woke up at 7pm. wahhaha! im so proud of myself. hehe. din went for prac 2. aiks. backache as i expected. hectic work the night before. but im happy. i proved myself tat i dun sux at work. something i can be proud of. =) been's nuaing at home since i woke up. tmr plan to johor wif my aunty been's cancelled. but shld be goin out ba.
many nice movies are out screening soon. hitman, fred claus, the golden compass, the tattoonist, the heartbreak kid (super sneaks de), good luck chuck and alvin the chipmunks. i dunno who to ask out and who wld wan to watch it wif me. aikz. pple seem to hv their own small plans ,and me, im always trying to find available pple to fulfill my own little plans.
i saw tis quote on tv tdy. find it quite meaningful. "zhen xi jing ri, yin wei ta shi ming tian de hui yi". tata guys. hv a fun wkend. =)
是谁的心啊
孤单的留下 (wo de)
他(ni)还好吗
我多想爱他(ni)
那永恒的泪
那一句话
也许可能蒸发
是谁的爱啊
又为谁降下
轻声呼唤
就让我融化
那一滴雨水
演化成我翅膀
向着我爱的人追吧
wo yi ran xiang zhe ni. Labels: 月牙湾
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
the smoke's been cleared. im down yet i felt relieved. at least i din regret wad i did. im happy i got an ans even if its not a really clear one. so yupp.
wads love? i do not know. it hurts time and time again, yet pple still wanna get near it. i fell too hard tis time. finding it hard to climb back up. my little pride's been hurt. the wall around me was torn. i wan to give everything up. i had enuff of love. wads wrong? was it me or was fate juz playing a prank on me? this, i do not know. im sick. so so sick and tired of trying and trying again. im not desperate, juz tat i dun wanna be lonely. i tot i cld always moved on and m a person who dare to love and hate. but i was wrong. im juz a person who's so darn afraid of being alone. i wan to run back to my little world yet i cldnt anymore. to be embrace wif love and juz love alone, when will the time come? i ponder.
gd news came frm miss peany. her wish came true. im so happy for her. not because ill get a big treat frm her but her long long dream's finally came true. how many times does a dream really came true. the ans is seldom. and if u were to see this miss pea, "do wad ur heart wans the most and dun regret. ur still young and the experience will definitely be a gd one. looking forward to seeing u and ur updates. =) "
lesson learned: for a dream/wish to come true, the only way to it is to be persistent. shld i?
was suppose to tke my prac 2 either ytd or tdy but lucky i din register yet. sat i hurt my arm, resulting in pain on sunday. so practically sunday was spent out wif my mum and aunty. and at my aunt's hse at night. finally i cld use the msn for a day. wahahah. and tdy. it was raining in the noon. no being a drenched duck for me. hehe. went for my first theory lesson. was okay but im hungry throughout. haha! din had dinner as usual. lalala. tmr's night is my second lesson. looking forwardto it and soon my theory test. =)
i wanna save up for my second hand bike. =) vroom vroom. keke.
so yupp. tat's all for now. till den. nitey.
for now. all i need to do i to lay low. till den, ill find myself again and i promised. one day, ill walk out of my door and find the one tat's had always been opened for me. one tat will be happy.
searching myself for an ans, yet i cldnt find any.
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
Saturday, November 17, 2007
its 5am. and i cldnt get to slp. i had enuff. i dun wan to be hung around like a puppet anymore. the truth are all out tonight. i need to know something. anything. at least how u feel. i dun care being the 3rd party or wad so ever anymore. i cldnt control this overwhelming feeling anymore. its too much for me to bear. even if this were the last of us. im willing to sacrifice. even if the nx few days, or months or years were over by using tears to wash my face. i dun give a hack anymore. i know one day ill regret for doin this. making our friendship impossible, but i dun care. i want u now and really badly. AT LEAST TELL ME HOW U FEEL. tat's all i wan to know. im so tired of being sad and everything. all the sorrows tat had stayed for months. i wan to be happy. at least i know u make me happy. I JUZ WAN TO KNOW HOW U FEEL........ Am i wrong in doin tat..... i juz wan to love and be loved...... i love u, do u know tat? i cant be strong anymore. since tat day. i became vunerable...
mayb tdy will be the mark of a new day for cln. whether its gonna be a gd or bad one. it doesnt matter anymore. for i will know the truth. nothing but the truth.
"love is a simple thing. It’s either you love, or you don’t. You can try everything, almost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love, or you don’t" --> i tried everything, and i know this clearly. I love you, ..... .Labels: its all lost
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
Thursday, November 15, 2007
i'm so easily distracted nowadays. my minds not concentrating and the only thing i think of is you. when im tightening the bolts, i tot of you. when im torque-ing the bolts, i tot of you. everything i do, i jus kept tinking of you. been getting cuts on my hands and legs, yet all i can tink of was juz you.
colleagues been talking bout my hair recently. lol. kinda like the attention. hehe.
i really wanna see u again. dere's so many things i wanna do. i cant pretend like nothing had happen anymore. how can i stop the pain tat's growing inch by inch each day.
tis song's for u:
看见你 聊到了他而微笑
我心里 那点遗憾不见了
你的最后选择是谁
忽然之间这个答案
已似乎 不重要
我肩膀 永远等著你依靠
但是我 更不希望你受困
扰我把时间对摺一遍
从前未来唯一重叠
要你很幸福 这心愿不动摇
只要 你好就好
你好就好
其他的我不计较
就算我会烦恼
就算我会焦躁
就算我会被忘掉
你好就好
你好就好(要过得比我好)
我的爱没有句号
像过去那样做到
对你的付出坚持不肯少
wo xiang nian ni the xin qing, ni ke zhi dao?Labels: missed
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
went k-ing with kim and guys tdy. not veri happy through. mind were full of things poping up. i missed you. how i wish you were here. spending the moment with me and the few nice songs i hear frm u. alicia got a song and it hits jackpots. missing how well you sang tat song.
i'm tired. slept late ytd and still not used to work after a wk break. bloggin now to show im still alive while trying damn hard to use my msn. it really went bonkers liao. wad is comp w/o msn. arghh... and i cant install java on my comp. how to pay my credit card bill sia. ji dan man. oh. and stupid shet me. i accidentally delete ur msn contact. kaoz. how how???
i dun wanna continue liao. dinner's home. taking it and off to beauty land. lol. nitey pple. =)
yuan liang wo bu neng gei ni wo de quan bu. dan wo shui shi zai deng tai. Labels: tired
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
went super mad shopping wif my cousins ytd and tdy. super spending sia. bout 400 to 500 bucks gone in two days. OMG. my ot ka-ching oso not enuff sia. dieeee! and i tell u all. credit cards are a killer. lol. lucky im one who can still hold back. keke. almost dere man. aikz. im so so broke. but im happy!!! m i? wad the hack. lol. got alot of stuffs i wanted. hehe! nice nice. i likeeeee~
okays. i need to start my riding again. been slacking and finding excuses for it. jia you jia you. whahah. my theory lesson coming up too. on 19 and 20th. keke. muz rmbr to go sia. if not my ka-ching will b down the drain again. hehe.
alright. tat's all folks. cln to lala land now. byeeee.
i cant seem to suppress my feelings for you anymore. i know i promised, tats y im holding back. i really need to know how you feel bout me and i really wanna see me one more time. (crazy tots)Labels: happy = sad
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
Sunday, November 11, 2007
alright!! new updates!!! lol.
ed: im reporting im alive and still kicking. lol.
zhi wei: pai seh call wrong number ytd. lol. seriouly. i really dunno wad to add for the post on my bday liao. hehe. but i really enjoyed myself. =)
rin, bao, zhu: lets meet up soon yupp. and no more Pei Yong Jun lar! im Ng Yong Jun. wahahha.
okays. many things happen these few days. and if u pple dun know where i m. im on leave till tue. babysitting my cousin who came over frm malaysia. lol. yupp yupp. i know im so darn gd rite. wahahah.
actually dere's so much things on my mind but i cant seem to blog it down. its juz not seem my nature to made everything clear. yet i realise one true fact. tis yr sux for me. who can i blame and push the excuse too. i'd lost the most important person in my life, learned to get up and start all over again, yet i kept falling and failing. i learn not to be selfish and hurt other pple frm my other experience, yet i end up hurting myself. i only had myself to blame in the end. and pressure from work doesnt help at all. you know, its nv easy to pick up urself after a fall. and tis time, i really dunno if im able to stand up again.
"the night at the chalet was wonderful wif u. though the time spend were so short, it made me happy. really happy since months ago. i can still feel ur warm in my arms and ur gentleness. ur bites, ur everything kept flashing thru my mind. i cant seem to erase it. i always tot it was a crush but i was wrong.
ytd i realise how devoted *m was to u. i was so envy. how can someone still give so much when nothing was returned. it hits me. wad m i doin here feeling sad for myself? aint i goin to fight for u? so wad if everything is impossible. dere's always a way out. the car sit's still warm and pillow's still with ur scent. how can i give up all these. i decided. since i alrdy fall den make it a big fall den.
i still dunno how u really feel towards me but i'll b waiting. for tat day, we run into each other arms. i miss u. did u?"
im in love wif zhi guai wo by maia lee. if anyone found this song pls tell me. thank you. will upload the lyrics on my nx post.
i'm so in love with u. if u know who u are.Labels: so so random
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
