Sunday, November 11, 2007
alright!! new updates!!! lol.
ed: im reporting im alive and still kicking. lol.
zhi wei: pai seh call wrong number ytd. lol. seriouly. i really dunno wad to add for the post on my bday liao. hehe. but i really enjoyed myself. =)
rin, bao, zhu: lets meet up soon yupp. and no more Pei Yong Jun lar! im Ng Yong Jun. wahahha.
okays. many things happen these few days. and if u pple dun know where i m. im on leave till tue. babysitting my cousin who came over frm malaysia. lol. yupp yupp. i know im so darn gd rite. wahahah.
actually dere's so much things on my mind but i cant seem to blog it down. its juz not seem my nature to made everything clear. yet i realise one true fact. tis yr sux for me. who can i blame and push the excuse too. i'd lost the most important person in my life, learned to get up and start all over again, yet i kept falling and failing. i learn not to be selfish and hurt other pple frm my other experience, yet i end up hurting myself. i only had myself to blame in the end. and pressure from work doesnt help at all. you know, its nv easy to pick up urself after a fall. and tis time, i really dunno if im able to stand up again.
"the night at the chalet was wonderful wif u. though the time spend were so short, it made me happy. really happy since months ago. i can still feel ur warm in my arms and ur gentleness. ur bites, ur everything kept flashing thru my mind. i cant seem to erase it. i always tot it was a crush but i was wrong.
ytd i realise how devoted *m was to u. i was so envy. how can someone still give so much when nothing was returned. it hits me. wad m i doin here feeling sad for myself? aint i goin to fight for u? so wad if everything is impossible. dere's always a way out. the car sit's still warm and pillow's still with ur scent. how can i give up all these. i decided. since i alrdy fall den make it a big fall den.
i still dunno how u really feel towards me but i'll b waiting. for tat day, we run into each other arms. i miss u. did u?"
im in love wif zhi guai wo by maia lee. if anyone found this song pls tell me. thank you. will upload the lyrics on my nx post.
i'm so in love with u. if u know who u are.Labels: so so random
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
