Tuesday, November 20, 2007
the smoke's been cleared. im down yet i felt relieved. at least i din regret wad i did. im happy i got an ans even if its not a really clear one. so yupp.
wads love? i do not know. it hurts time and time again, yet pple still wanna get near it. i fell too hard tis time. finding it hard to climb back up. my little pride's been hurt. the wall around me was torn. i wan to give everything up. i had enuff of love. wads wrong? was it me or was fate juz playing a prank on me? this, i do not know. im sick. so so sick and tired of trying and trying again. im not desperate, juz tat i dun wanna be lonely. i tot i cld always moved on and m a person who dare to love and hate. but i was wrong. im juz a person who's so darn afraid of being alone. i wan to run back to my little world yet i cldnt anymore. to be embrace wif love and juz love alone, when will the time come? i ponder.
gd news came frm miss peany. her wish came true. im so happy for her. not because ill get a big treat frm her but her long long dream's finally came true. how many times does a dream really came true. the ans is seldom. and if u were to see this miss pea, "do wad ur heart wans the most and dun regret. ur still young and the experience will definitely be a gd one. looking forward to seeing u and ur updates. =) "
lesson learned: for a dream/wish to come true, the only way to it is to be persistent. shld i?
was suppose to tke my prac 2 either ytd or tdy but lucky i din register yet. sat i hurt my arm, resulting in pain on sunday. so practically sunday was spent out wif my mum and aunty. and at my aunt's hse at night. finally i cld use the msn for a day. wahahah. and tdy. it was raining in the noon. no being a drenched duck for me. hehe. went for my first theory lesson. was okay but im hungry throughout. haha! din had dinner as usual. lalala. tmr's night is my second lesson. looking forwardto it and soon my theory test. =)
i wanna save up for my second hand bike. =) vroom vroom. keke.
so yupp. tat's all for now. till den. nitey.
for now. all i need to do i to lay low. till den, ill find myself again and i promised. one day, ill walk out of my door and find the one tat's had always been opened for me. one tat will be happy.
searching myself for an ans, yet i cldnt find any.
- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;
