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- cln -
'86 baby

"love is a simple thing. It’s either you love, or you don’t. You can try everything, almost everything to prevent yourself from loving, but it all boils down to this: Either you love, or you don’t"

cOnnEctEd

*dEe
*miss pea
*caroline
*old man
*ed with the capital E
*isabell
*rin
*mie
*dIa
*zhi wei
*rachel
*darren
*marc
*francine *amanda
*mud's tee

*pASt*

04-chris brown-wit...

+AgGy

Wishlist

-a new phone-
-many nice watches- <- still not enuff
-shoes-
-bling blings-
-digi cam-
-more night outings-
-to ride soon-
-more clothes-
-work to go well-
-no more being late-
-to be more actively involve in everything-
-someone to love n be loved- (sound so desperate lol)

Special thanks

DESIGNER: ice angel

Brushes: Fractured-Sanity.Org

Friday, December 7, 2007

tis my 21st post on tis blog. nthing special though. haha! i have been hooked onto CSI shows. tat's the cause of no updates. wahaha! been checking out phones and comps nowadays. saw a few phones i like but dunno which one to get. the ka-ching factor and its function. make a choice for me: apple iphone, nokia 8800 arte, N95 8GB or the LG KU990 Viewty. as for comps. i gave up hope. im really an idiot on comps man. haha! mayb ill wait till mr billy ng's back. guess i can wait for 3 more months or so. or mayb not? haha! hack! now back to the phone. iphone had sucky reviews which make me had second thoughts. 8800 is freaking nice but the ka-ching prob is a big factor and the functions are okay only. n95 8GB's not bad. dunno wad to comment on it only tat its gps is a double thumb up for me. lol. LG phone is okay too. functions are quite similar to iphone. only tat iphone look nicer. tink i prefer the 95 phone over lg's. haha!

i wonder why humans are all the same. we're always searching for new excitement to make our own little life go on, we assume, complaint over the slightest things and we tke each other for granted. we always expect the things given to be returned in the end. in life and in love. but tat's not it. you see. wad's given were made by ur own choice. no one pt a gun at you and demand you to do wadeva you did. so dun expect any return for it and be glad if you recieve any. life and love. its all the same. they have their own ups and downs, their own excitement and even their own stagnancy. dun expect much from it. living thru them as they were ur last day. in life, we're always trying to make the best of/for ourselves, a little selfishness will play in part but we nv forget tat we had frens and we nv expect any favours to be returned rite. jus as in love, no one will love another equally. its either you loved more or the other way round. yet the pt is, did you gave ur all?

some pple. they cld juz moved on like nothing had ever happened. were they cold-hearted? no. juz tat they had something worth moving on.
dere were pple like me. pple who tried to moved on but cant. nothing for them to moved on and memories kept haunting them. hv pity on them? no. they will eventually move on.
and den dere were pple who doesnt even wanna move on. they gave up, knowing tat nothing can be replaced. they can be the best or worse catergory a person can be in.
so which catergory are you? haha! im so random.

okay back to my life. 5th dec. 4 months passed juz like tat. i cld barely rmbr how you are the last time. the old you. the one tat i once loved dearly. parent asked. wad make the changes in you. frens asked. had i forgotten. i always replied wif a smile, "how cld i?". i cant forget how my tears will flow, toking bout it. avoiding questions asked even up to now. but im surprised i cld be so calm. xmas r around the corner. i can still rmbr how the first xmas was spent. the day i knew you loved me. and eventually the first new yr celebration and the nx. the champagne, hugs exchanged and the feeling of a family. how will i spend it tis year. without you? how can my heart (the size of my fist) be filled wif so much you. tot i cast it away yet i realised i juz had it put aside. please be HAPPY! dun let me regret giving you up.

i realised wad i lose after i lost. mayb tis is wad every person shld experience once. cuz it den teaches you to treasure. the previous and the nx. it teaches me so much. i cld say im quite a selfish person like most of the human on earth, thinking of themselves and neglecting their loved ones but im learning. im not the word kind of person so you'll seldom hear me say "hey. i love you." to frens and even loved ones. but i do realise i do little things for them. like how i still went to fetch dear mum even outing with her was cancelled and im seeing red. how i send her to the doc for a jab due to work stuff and had to make my way thru tat crappy small lane car park, almost hitting alot of cars and why the hell is dere so many cars on a thurs nite, juz to wait for her when i cld juz drop her off somewhere and ask her to make her own way home. they mayb small things to you but for me. its alot cuz dear cln is not a average patient girl. and my temper. haha! i guess u guys shld know ba. so yupp.

im tired. gonna work ltr. so nx time. tata guys. izzit enuff for u to read billy ng. wahhaa! i need time to do shopping for pressie. wad to get?? aaarrrhhh.

i wonder how you are. i didnt dare to contact you. better not to disturb. but i wanna say i'd got a present for you. only tat i dunno how to pass it to you. tinkin of the best way though. i know im stupid for typing it here cuz you dun even know my blog. haha! anyhow, i really hope you'll like it.

- sometimes it takes a change of scenery to have a change of heart - ;